“I never pray for patience,” my husband said matter-of-factly. “For I know if I do, I am going to end up in a traffic jam.”
There is a bit of truth to that statement. I have the feeling, it sums up how many of us feel about the idea of learning patience.
The reality is,
And the risk we take is actually admitting we are impatient. I sure don’t like admitting that to anyone, at least not out loud.
Well, here lately, I have been having those “traffic jam” moments. Not just one. But, quite a few of them. Which has caused me to realize that God has been trying to teach me something.
LEARN FROM EXPERIENCE
In the last year, I have embarked on something new to me. I have entered into the world of traditional book publishing.
For years, God has been working on my heart, redeeming my past, and challenging my point of view to help me see how He has gifted me to write. This blog, in fact, became a part of my leap of faith in getting started with a public writing ministry again.
But God, was patient with me in my scooting around His truth, and after a few months of blogging, reminded me how He had laid on my heart to write a book about overcoming the addiction to approval, not start a blog as I had done.
And so I went, rooting out my old book proposal from years ago, reading it again and coming to the realization that it was actually quite good. Which was a totally surprise me.
And so I decided I needed to obey God to obtain an agent to get my book published.
Now in theory, that sounds wonderful. But, in practicality it is a whole different story. You see in the publishing world things can move at a snails pace. A book that you get sold now may not be actually published until two years from now.
But for the sake of my example, and how God taught me how to be patient when I am being impatient, allow me just a moment to share with you how this long, tedious process works.
First you need to send an email to an agent to query them on your book idea. Different agents have different submission guidelines but most of the time they either want an entire book proposal or the first few pages of your book. You can choose to do snail mail if you still live in the dark ages, but really an email works just fine.
4-6 weeks later, get an email back that will indicate their interest. Check your email incessantly day after day, hoping, no, WILLING, an email to come back from said agent, all the while being slightly fearful of what their email might say.
Receive email. Hallelujah!!! Hear angels singing, scream at the top of your lungs. (Oh wait, maybe that was just me.) Decide if I you should open email with friends or alone where no one can read the rejection with you.
You will know almost immediately whether or not they are interested. Agents are also writers, and they typically get to the point. Why dilly-dally.
Honestly, I think this process is to really train you for the long haul. I mean, it’s like becoming a runner. You don’t do a marathon before you run a 5k. In the book-publishing world, you need to be ready for the marathon; this is training for the long, hard race.
Back in January was when this all began. It took three different email inquiries to find an agent who showed interested. Hallelujah! I may or may not have screamed out loud in my office by myself, with no one around to say whether or not it happened. I plead the 5th.
But, because I am an unpublished author, the agent requested I write the manuscript before he’d consider signing me. Sigh. Hey if it was easy, everyone would do it.
Wait again. This time you are working frantically while you wait, because now you must produce the very thing you said you could. But nonetheless, it feels like a long drawn out wait because you won’t get an answer on representation until the manuscript is done.
And I don’t know about you, but I can’t produce a 50,000-60,000 word manuscript to perfection overnight.
Now fast forward a few months. Writing. Living. Writing some more.
During that time I decide I am going to attend a writer’s conference where I can pitch my idea to other agents (it’s a free market) and editors from various publishing houses. While also making contacts, learning how to write better and eventually market said book.
Good news! Conference went really well and had lots of interest.
Get home from conference to follow up with everyone I met with to send book proposals and thank you notes.
Email. Email. Email some more. And wait.
A few were quick to return responses within a week.
However, others, well, that is where the waiting patiently muscle has to be flexed.
Week, after week, after week, after week…nothing.
So now it’s been 9 months since I first started sending out the book proposal to agents and I have not signed with an agent, yet still have three I am waiting on response from. And an email inbox just waiting to receive their email.
Sigh. If only we could will an answer.
Oh and prayer? Yes, ma’am, pretty please, and believe me you there has been a lot of that going on.
DO THE OPPOSITE OF PATIENT
But these past few weeks I started to realize something about myself. I no longer having an internal struggle of impatience; it started erupting out of every part of me.
My arms would start flailing as I passionately expressed my challenges with this industry and process. My voice would get louder. I sometimes sounded, angry. Angry? Where did that come from? I mean, the view from the outside may be that of a child, throwing a fit.
Not me! I wouldn’t do that. Sigh. Blush. But I did. Oh yes I did.
So this week I reflected on the feelings being expressed during the wait. First of, I recognized how irritated I had become. Even offended, at times. It didn’t help that I compared their lack of response to other agents I was communicating with recently. Then there was the moaning, complaining and then my moments of venting annoyance.
And here is what the Holy Spirit, in my seeking said to me. Okay, really the Holy Spirit did not speak in an audible voice from heaven. It actually came from a colleague…but oh I knew it was Him as soon as she said it.
Here is what she said, “Do you not trust the Lord to supply the right agent at the right time. I mean, He got you this far. He’s not going to let you down now.”
Ouch. Anyone else have a friend like that? Man are they annoying.
But truly, we all need friends like these who listen to the Lord and are not afraid to share a fresh word of truth to us.
She was right. God was right. I was not trusting. My response was immature and completely impatient.
SURRENDER AND TRUST
The Lord’s intent was to teach me patience, however, I did the exact opposite.
But I learned an important lesson in this and maybe it will help you too.
It’s doing the exact opposite of the thing you are doing. You see, I was playing tug-o-war with the Lord. I am a Bible-believing Christian. I do my quiet times in the morning. I spend time praying throughout the day.
Many times I would say to myself “I trust you Lord. Whatever you want Lord, I trust you.”
But I was taking it back. Every time I asked the question, why haven’t I heard yet? Every time I wondered if they had forgotten about me. When someone would ask how the process was going, it felt like salt in the wound, I wanted to be able to say I had an agent, a book contract the whole shebang.
You and I may believe God’s timing is perfect, but are we really surrendering our plans, our dreams, and our goals to allow Him to work them out in His timing. Or are we playing tug-of-war with our emotions, when the reality is we really aren’t in control.
So here is what I did. Maybe it is what you need to do too.
I went home. I picked up my laptop computer and I placed it in my hands. I literally lifted it off the table. You see, most days my hands are typing on the keyboard, holding it into place, keeping it under my control. But that night, I gave it all over to the Lord.
I repeated what Job said after he lost everything, “The Lord gives. The Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
His timing is perfect. His plan is already in place. Do you trust Him?
The only way you are ever going to be able to show patience in the midst of impatience is if you surrender it all and trust Him to do the work He is more than capable of doing. Let Him be your advocate. And lay the rope down.
What are you struggling with right now that is making you extremely impatient? Is there something that represents what are you are struggling with that you can use as you surrender and trust the Lord?
13 thoughts on “How to be Patient when you are Impatient”
Ahhhh wait—the four letter word that contains enduring teachable moments. Surrender and trust in the Lord is the only answer as you so beautifully explained. May God grant you peace in your waiting and writing as you strive to encourage others through your God-given talent.
Thanks Deborah. I love how you put that…”the four letter word that contains enduring teachable moments” on that is the truth of it, isn’t? It should be our view of waiting, teachable moments, but we are so wanting to get to our end result that we skip the beauty of process. Thanks for the encouragement and wisdom.
Thank you for sharing. Reading your post was timely for me! Your experience is a good reminder of how I should be patient. I have been going through challenges with the same thing you have been. It is very frustrating, but we need to trust the Lord.
Thanks Paige for sharing. I am so glad that my challenges with patience can minister to you. Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one making the missteps with my Heavenly Father. it’s so humbling when I realize how much I can make a mess of His perfect plan. You are right, as frustrating as it is, we need to trust the Lord.
Oh wow, could I relate to this one. I went to my first writing conference three years ago and began pitching my YA book idea. I finally have an agent and a publishing contract! It only took THREE years 🙂
God’s timing is perfect. And three is a godly number, right?
Hi Beckie. Yes! His timing is so perfect. I was reminded of that today as I sat with my child counting out with him the number of days left until camp was over. He was bugging me to stay home. But when camp ends, he’ll no longer be able to see his best friend everyday and he had not realized that it was coming to a close. He got very emotional and my sweet baby had a small, tear roll down his face. He is seven. I thought about how we get when we tire of something, whether it be a waiting process until the next thing, or a season of life to come to an end. Just like my child, we don’t appreciate what we have while we have it and then it switches to a new season, that we had been hoping for and longing for, but don’t realize how the loss of the old season may affect us. I hope that makes sense. God is driving home this concept for me this week and I am becoming profoundly aware of how important it is for me to quit being impatient and just savor the moments that I have.
By the way, congrats on your agent and book contract! That is AWESOME!
Wow, Dawn! I can sooo relate to your post. Even when you get an agent, you still wait for the publishers to respond to the agent. That was hard. And after the waiting, the responses were no, no, no. She’s an unknown. Just recently, I decided to lay the dream of publishing on the altar and letting go – and trusting God. He knows what’s best for me. And if publishing a Bible study isn’t His best, I don’t want it. I loved your post – found myself laughing, and nodding my head in agreement. Thanks!
Oh Crickett. I know, I know…it’s such a struggle. We have this desire, this belief, and these talents that the Lord has given us. What are we to do with them when we get answers such as these. I think you did the best thing you could, you took it all to God. Our Heavenly Father loves us so much and has so much in store for us. It can feel like platitudes at times but it’s not, it’s the truth. He has the ability to see what is to come and the patience to endure what it might take to get there. He knows the day that He is going to surprise you with your “YES” and He will delight in your joy and excitement, knowing His surprise “YES” was what you truly needed. Not an expected one. We’ll wait together, we’ll pray for His patience together, and let’s rejoice together when He does what He has set us for us to do!
Welcome to the publishing world. 😉 I waited on hearing about a book proposal for 7 months, but the joy of getting that far helped me get through. The proposal wasn’t accepted, but God took a different route. I’ll tell you about that later.
It is HARD to wait, but every minute we wait, we have the chance to DO something – keep writing, keep loving people, keep following God. I’ll pray for you as you wait to hear back, and please pray for me too. Working hard is a part of dreams, but oh, when they come true! The whole country can hear you scream and sing. Love you, Dawn.
Oh Katy. I will be praying for you for sure. This dream is so worth it in the end though, right? God gets the glory, we get to see lives changed, and He uses us in ways we could only dream of. It’s beautiful.
Dawn, I giggled when I read about your friend’s comment that annoyed you because it was on target. We can all identify with that. Thank you for a reminder that the Lord continues His work in us. Phil. 1:6
Thanks for replying! Oh yes, and the Lord actually uses her quite frequently to do that exact same thing, which can be really infuriating at times. But I love her dearly, so there is always that.
Dawn you are wonderful God made you and he does not make mistakes!